Well i didn't fall over from boredom up at my cabin. Luckily my cousin came by and we hung out and had a sleepover and ate so much food that I feel REALLY sick right now. (lol) We shot off some fireworks, which was fun, and tried to watch this movie, but the VCR had a meltdown so we watched Harry Potter on TV. That was all Saturday afternoon and night, which made that day good. But Friday after we got up there, we went straight over to the farm. My grandma was still on her way down from my aunt's house, so no one was there. As we drove into the driveway and I got out of the car, I started getting the chills. Over and over and over. I was SO scared to be out there. My grandma is always saying that grandpa's spirit is there, but I still can't deal with the supernatural. I didn't want to go in the house, so my mom and dad went in, leaving me in the middle of the circle of all the farm buildings, and I started jumping around in a circle, talking to my myself saying that there was no reason for me to be scared, none at all... And then the door on the far side of the garage slammed up against the wall in the wind and I jumped about a foot in the air and ran inside. The entire time I was there I felt like I was watched- I was so scared. We left soon after, and I feel really bad that I was scared. I mean, I do believe that my grandpa is at the farm- he lived there his entire life. But I just can't deal with stuff like that. I fall to pieces when it comes to scary stuff, even though it shouldn't be scary because I loved, rather love, my grandpa. The next day we came back to the farm, and my grandma was there, and I followed my dad around while I helped him fix the lawnmower which was interesting to watch. I didn't feel nervous or scared at all- except once. My dad was looking around in the shop for a cresent wrench to help fix the lawnmower, and he kept saying "where is that cresent wrench?". Well, he gave up and used another tool instead, and we went over to the lawnmower outside. Then he started fixing a tire, and I pointed out that the valve cap was missing. My dad shrugged and worked on the oil for a while and then took the tire back to the shop to fix it because it was flat. We walked in and the first thing my dad says is "here's that cresent wrench!" It was sitting on a bucket next to the door. It wasn't there when we left. I noticed that RIGHT away and instantly I felt like I was being watched. I was SO scared again and my hand instantly went to the doorknob. I got the chills again, and soon after we left to go back to the lawnmower. My dad put the tire back on, and looks down on the step on the side of the lawnmower and says "here's the valvecap!" That wasn't there before either. We were outside, but I didn't feel like I was being watched- my aunt had just driven up the driveway. And the entire time I had the song "Even in Death" stuck in my head, even though a lot of the song doesn't apply to me, but some of it does. We left soon after, but even though I was scared at first, I was kind of happy that those things were happening- it makes me realize that I don't have anything to be afraid of.

"Even in Death" by Evanescence

Give me a reason to believe that you're gone
I see your shadow so I know they're all wrong
Moonlight on the soft brown earth leads me to where you lay
They took you away from me
But now I'm taking you home

I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

Some say I'm crazy for my love, oh my love
But no bonds can hold from your side, oh my love
They don't know you can't leave me
They don't hear you singing to me

I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on

And I can't love you
Anymore than I do

I will stay forever here with you
My love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And I can't love you
Anymore than I do